I went walking
late this evening
wondering if I should stay with you
and in the silence
of the streetlights
I figured out what I should do
‘cuz all of my life I've been changing
to what everyone wants me to be
Chorus:
But not anymore
I'm letting go
I'm not gonna be
a kaleidoscope
I'm saving my life
or what's left to lose
and taking it back from you
I was afraid
of some kind of change
but not anymore
I was waiting
for life to happen
I thought it began with someone else
I thought the answers
were somewhere out there
but they're inside of myself
and you'd never believe all the colors
that spun me and spun me around
Chorus:
But not anymore
I'm letting go
I'm not gonna be
a kaleidoscope
I'm saving my life
or what's left to lose
and taking it back from you
I was afraid
of some kind of change
but not anymore
Been shattered and scattered to pieces
I denied them and lied they were me
Chorus:
But not anymore
I'm letting go
I'm not gonna be
a kaleidoscope
I'm saving my life
or what's left to lose
and taking it back from you
I was afraid
But I'm letting go
I'm not gonna be
a kaleidoscope
I'm saving my life
or what's left to lose
and taking it back from you
I was afraid
but everything's changed
not anymore
All my life I tried to be everything to everybody. I didn't know who I was, or why I was with the people I was with. Every day was like losing a little more of my life, watching it slip by without my participation. When I finally found the courage to do something about it, I realized I couldn't stay in the same situations and relationships as before. To take control meant I had to take responsibility for what would happen. And as I gathered up the pieces of myself, I found the sweetest freedom I'd ever tasted.